Apparently , the fever had cause some sort of sever acute brain damage to me. How could i have turned so oblivious that i forget today is new year?
Well , thanks for those that wished me happy new year. but no matter how u play it , it's still a gloomy new year for me .
Basically, i detest my family. They were as good as a recipe of mixed abomination and aversion with loathe to add its delight . Whenever they appear before my vision , The feeling in my heart just turned topsy turvy. It's like the feeling of shortening one's life or rather , the reaction that causes the thunder god in me to go crazy and spam his lightning all over me
The positive and negative thought of them were already symmetrical from the start . A little waver could change my impression to the good or bad side. but now, things couldn't get any better .
There was a strong repulsion between both parties in the environment which only i could feel. The air was silent but filled with untold sentiment all over me . All my negative feelings seemed to be magnified.
I had to dine with them. My anger redoubled upon the sight of them. I honestly cant find any reason to that .
Perhaps it's the influence of such negative thoughts that impacted on my behavior. I turned all insolent without even considering their presence. I tried to play teacher inside of me to teach myself how to give excuses to ease my anger. In the end , i only learned how to devour down my food and went back to webbing .
Alright , enough of those worthless thoughts I shan't complaint so much since it's suppose to be ' happy' right?
What's with the $2 in my red packet? it's the heart within it that counts ? But too bad . Anyone would prefer the amount it contains than the heart it places . It's still the money we keep in the end and the wrapper crushed into the bin .
I rather not receive such cheapskate red packet. It's like paying me for garbage services It's no fun paying me to throw your desired red packet away you know. It just tarnish my reputation.
Let's see . . .
you are like a gigantic , mighty apple tree with such succulent , divine and pumpkin sized apples stemming out of your robust and reliable branches that also holds the the tree's water enriched , dark green leaves. Here i come dropping by for a visit.
There was already an expectation in my mind . Though I was only expecting one of those apples but what do i get? I didn't even got the rotten ones.
What you gave me was actually that dying worm you thought of feeding to that pack of wild starving toads in that filthy drain !
. Ah. That best described what that guy gave me. I knew it was wrong to sneak peek. I was just curios why is the packet so flat. curiosity kills the cat.
And that cat is the good impression i once held for you.
