. . . This would most probably be my last post ever . . .
I came to realize that the O lv collection is getting nearer and nearer as the days past which means , my time on earth is getting lesser and lesser . . .
I am about to part everyone . . . So i decided to treasure the remaining time i have by recalling the sweet memories i had with everyone . . . .
If the rumors are true , 9jan is my death date . . . I hope my death god isnt too scary . . .
So, i have about 2weeks and more before my time is finally up . . .
I wanted to do so many things . . . There's a hell lot of stuff I didnt manage to do . . . but it seemed like my chances has been cruelly and forcefully ripped of my hands . . .
How could heaven do this to me . . . it's so torturing and heart wrenching . . .
To get to know the day that I die , is . . . is like getting to know that I am facing a total unfairness . . . Why am I the only one that has to die . . . I feel so helpless . . . I dont want to die now . . . .
I would really treasure everything i have if I were given another chance to live on . . .
In the midst of despair , I sought time . . . My dictionary spells no more than DEATH itself . . . My mind thinks nothing but the remaining time that sprints . . . My feet is taking me no where as if it's saving it's last bit of energy to help me through the gates . . . My soul acts as if it's feeding on my body . . . taking it over . . . My mind goes blank . . . all I see are angels waving at me . . . I see no future like i did yesterday . . . . .
I could say i am not afraid . . . but i would be lying . . .
My will has faded . . . my soul has shattered . . . now , . . . i am only waiting for my heart . . . to finally give it's last beat . . . and finally rest after this long . . .
There's so many so many things i have to say . . . but god ruthlessly robbed me off my rights . . .
Now i am left with tons guilt , miles of burdens and those that swallow up my pride to apologize and face . . .
I am sorry for the time i wasted with you guys . . . . I hope , at least , i could be of a little help . . . a tiny bit would do . . . I would gladly love to help you again if I got the chance . . .
Remember , No one has the right to stop you from choosing , but the choices you make the very moment will determine what you will own , be and repeat in your life !
I . . . I am really sorry I couldnt wish you guys good bye personally . . . It's such a shame I couldn't . . . sorry I couldn't walk to the gates of hell together with you guys . . .
Live on as I await my slow death . . . So , i will be typing my final goodbye here . . .
GoodBye my best buddies . . . You are the people that made me feel that time I spend was really worhtwhile . . . . You are the people that helped me go through the thick and thin of life . . . Although my life is incomplete , I hope you guys could live at best . . . There's no turning back for what i did . . . I am sorry for my selfish act . . . Hope my reincarnation is way better than i am now . . . ha ha . . .
Alright . . . I . . . shall take a step ahead first . . . . Good Bye . . .
