Friday, November 14, 2008
I think i am going to be retarded soon . I feel that this holiday is meant to make ppl do retarded stuff . I just feel like a retard for no reason and i feel that this holiday is going to be long and gloomy .
I will be staying at home like a handicapped and then maybe burn my house or eat my socks . I feel that i am getting AIDS cus i am drinking too many of my house's tap water cus my drinking thingy is infested with ants and i dunno why the ant so clever go there drink . . .
I think i am a hopeless stick . I suddenly feel like talking to myself in the mirror . How i wish i was an insect and i will spray baygon at myself and die . I wish that there's no holiday . Cus my prediction would be that everyone would not adapt to this after 3 weeks or maybe before. mark my words . And then i think everyone will feel that most of their friends have died .
But I think i am worst cus i cant take it anymore . . . it's only been less than a week of holiday and i feel that my whole body is leaving me . And this feeling is retarded cus u get hungry all of a sudden then u suddenly feel like sleeping . I feel like tearing my pants cus it look disgusting .
I feel like eating sleeping pills so i can sleep until the day we collect our results . I want to jumping off the building to unleash my flying capability . I want to eat light bulbs and flush my underwear into the toilet bowl .
I also want to be stranded on an island and eaten by a tiger . I feel like making friends with my neighbour's dead dog . I feel like laughing for nothing and i want to sleep on the streets .Then i feel like spending hundreds of dollars on ang ku kway .And i feel lke going to all the house of the people i know and thank them for letting me know them .
I dunno what this feeling is it's like i can type until tmr also havent finish . I think i am really retarded .Am i a tard ? I think i might really jump of the building . Or isit cus i stop being gay and i suddenly feel so insecure? Or isit my guy side is coming back and i feel that i am being left behind ?
Or is the the feeling of life before death . I am dying right ? I feel that either I'm not gonna make it until next year or I am going to die after collecting my results .
- Goodbye
2:40 AM
